A "Dead End" sign on the road to happiness..

Boy, has this weekend been tough on Muz and I. He talked to his parents (who are in India) on friday night, as usual, and they informed him that they are tearing down the building that they live in a year from now. They are building a 30 story apartment complex, which will take 2-3 yrs to complete. This pretty much means "get out." I talked to Muz on Saturday morning and could sence something was bothering him. He finally told me his parents situation and that he was worried. His parents are elderly (dad- 72, mom- 68).

Sunday came around (our day together)
I was suppost to show up at his place around 4pm. He kept calling me and calling me to come as early as possible - that he wanted to spend the day with me. I unfortunatly didnt get there til around 6. When I got to his place, i turned on the tv, as usual (they have apple tv.. amazing!) He then asked me to join him in his bedroom ("Um, okay".. was my tought). His roomate wasnt home so i didnt understand why we couldnt chat in the living room. I immediately got a horrible gut feeling, that something was wrong. He then closed the door, behind him and just hugged me so hard and wouldnt let go. He then sat me down on the bed (he was kneeling by my feet) and just hugged me so tight... All i kept saying "Whats wrong" "honey your scaring me" "what is it". He just kept shaking his head, and wouldnt say anything. He finally asked "where do you see us going?" I didnt know how to answer this. I hadnt thought it threw.. i was just going with the flow and see where we end up. He then told me that he has decided that he is moving back to India in a year to help his parents during there last years. At that very second water works began.

"What now?" "What does this mean?" " What about us?" "When are you coming back?" So many question just kept popping up in my head. He told me that this is permanent, and if he does come back it wont be for another 10yrs or so. For us- it means we need to end our relationship. I was heart broken. I couldnt talk. This was extremely hard. It is different when you are breaking up with someone that doesnt have feelings for you, have problems in the relationship. For us, we have none of that. We love/care about eachother so much. We enjoy just talking and being with eachother. He is the 1st personal i call or txt when something happens. I keep absolutely nothing from him. We layed in bed, in eachothers arms, and talked for hours. Trying to make sence of it all. I suggested: Skype, email, weekly phone calls, facebook, something... anything. He told me "NO". That type of life is not what we are destined. He said a phrase that just stuck in my head "If we do this, it will be like you are with a dead husband. I want to see you happy." He will be on the other side of the world - where night is day and day is night. I even considered moving to India with him. But, we both know that this is unrealistic.

Our conclusion: We go back to casual dating eachother, we date other people if we choose (we just cant tell eachother - it will be too painful), we still talk on the phone as usual, we will always be eachothers main support group - in other works - i got myself a new best friend. Our goal is to be able to say goodbye at the airport with good spirits, a smile, and wish eachother well.

So far... we are eachothers biggest support group. We call/txt eachother for a little picker upper when we feel down. Its working so far :) i kmow for a fact we will be ok. as long as we have eachother.